random thoughts

Missed you!

2010-02-04T12:37:00.002+08:00

Why do I suddenly miss blogging? Going through my old posts, I realized how 'sipag' I was back then in updating my blog... I want to get my groove back! Really I do... Let's see...

Remembering Tita Cory...

2009-08-04T18:17:00.003+08:00

Where did the weekend go?

2009-07-06T07:22:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah, didn't feel it.

Stuck at home the entire weekend. Boo!

Fire! Fire! Fire!

2009-06-30T10:54:00.003+08:00

It's your birthday!!!

Alarmless Fire Drill

2009-06-11T16:34:00.002+08:00

If there is even such a thing.

We were informed that our building will be having a fire drill today. It's actually quite okay since we only work on the 6th floor (compared to my old work where we were on the 20th floor).

HOWEVER, this activity is the most unorganized fire drill I have ever experienced. They don't even sound off the fire alarms to signal the start of the activity. All we have are security guards knocking on our glass doors informing us that the activity is already starting.

So pano pag may sunog? I guess we'll just depend on the screams of the people... Sunog! Sunog!

Hay. If this wasn't so annoying it'be damn funny!

Come on now!

2009-06-11T10:24:00.001+08:00

Why do I feel like I'm on the spotlight again?? And not in a good way.

Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

Haven't I endured this for almost 3 months before? Come on now amo!

Issssstooooppppeeeeet!

MYOH 2009

2009-06-01T11:35:00.003+08:00

We were able to go! Yey!

Of course, I had to bug Turon about it a month before the event. :) We were able to get 1 pair each! Woot! And ahhhhluvvvviiittt!

Wasn't able to get a picture of his pair though, so description na lang: moss green with gray logo straps plus TV pins for each!

Kaya lang, I missed my original companion in the MYOH event a few years back... Naks! Hahaha!

Woohoo!!!

2009-05-28T10:27:00.002+08:00

I'm happy!

I'm feeling glad!

I got sunshine in a bag!

I'm useless, but not for long.

The future is comin' on... is comin' on... is comin' on...

Resurfacing... with a rant

2009-05-26T14:15:00.007+08:00

Ok, so I haven't been blogging for (counting here...) 4 months. I seem to have lost my interest and can't really think of something good to blog about. Bear with me as I try my best to write something interesting... well, interesting for me. :)

Lately, I have notice this personality of mine where I dislike... no, I detest people who make-up all these stories just to have something to say. What irks me the most is that they seem to believe that we or I for that matter is even remotely interested in hearing all those made-up stories that makes them look like a great person. Furthermore, those that butt-in in the middle of conversations (which is totally disrespectful by the way) are so annoying. Didn't anybody teach you not to do that? Don't you just hate those?

Hmmm... not really a good topic for my come-back post. Anyhow, what have I been busy with the past 4 months? Let's see... living my life! :) To be more specific... busy with watching all my beloved TV series (anybody else excited about Grey's Anatomy Season 6??? or shocked about the Season 5 finale?), planning for our wedding, taking care/playing with my nephew and everything else in between! iluveeet! :)

2 planners!

2009-01-15T09:55:00.001+08:00

This year I was able to get 2 Starbucks planners. The other one I just got from Richmonde (officemate ko)... christmas gift daw nya samin ni Mich. Thanks Richmond! So now, I can give one to my sister. Good times! Happy times! Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy! Whatever. Pasensya na, malapit na ang weekend so maligalig na ako. Woot!

Typical you

2008-11-26T04:59:00.003+08:00

Do you really think I don't notice what you're doing? It's pathetic actually. You haven't changed AT ALL.

Whatever. I thought you were my friend. I guess not.

JT-SNL (nyahahahahaha!)

2008-11-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Movie Night

2008-11-23T04:50:00.002+08:00

Watched Twilight on its opening day here in the US. Our viewing was scheduled at 10PM but we (Augs, Don, Joy, Mich and I) decided to go early... as early as 8:45PM at Fox Cinema. We were anticipating the throng of movie-goers... and what do you know, we were right! As early as 8:45PM lines were already formed! We all felt like we were going to a High School party as the theater was filled with teenagers (kasama na kame dun!); teenage girls, teenage couples, teenage cliques. Too bad Jet missed all this! Hehehe. Cleary Twilight mania has hit the US. Hmm... I think I'll watch it again with Turon when I'm back in Manila.

Halo

2008-11-21T23:44:00.003+08:00

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
It’s the risk that I’m taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

Vanity

2008-11-13T11:31:00.005+08:00

Wala lang... I just like this picture a lot. Thanks to Don and Color Accent.

*Taken at National Museum of Natural History, Washington, DC

Oplan Starbucks

2008-11-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

Ever since the first time I was introduced to the Starbucks planner, I was hooked. It became kind of a tradition in our team (my old HP team) every Christmas season to give each other stickers. Even those that are not really that much into coffee and Starbucks, we usually convince them to buy one for the sake of the all-important sticker. Great friends eh? :D

While talking to Derick in YM, just found out that he just needs 6 more stickers!!!! I miss having them around to fill up the missing stickers... more importantly, I miss being in the Philippines to fill up those stickers for myself. I have actually tasked (note: Tasked! Oplan Starbucks Planner:D Turon to do this for me. I told him that by the time I come back to the Philippines, I should have my very own planner (Demanding ba? Hehehe. Love you Turon!) 'coz I usually get mine even before December starts!

Happy collecting to those who are doing so! :)

Crybaby Am I?

2008-11-07T11:12:00.004+08:00

I usually cry watching sad scenes from movies and TV series. Even if I'm watching with other people, I just let it out. Grey's Anatomy doesn't fail to make me cry and that's what we usually watch here to kill time during the weekends... Joy owns the complete series from Seasons 1 to 4! Even if I have already watched seasons 1-4, I still am very much insterested in watching them again aside from the weekly season 5 TV airings. I guess I really like crying. Hehehe.

I'm not sure how and why but I feel like somehow it acts as a release for me especially with all my 'emo' moments... Hehehe. :)

Joy nood na tayo! :D

NY Tour

2008-11-04T04:48:00.005+08:00

Back from NY! Had a blast! Will post more kwento and pics soon! Tinatamad at inaantok pa ako ngayon..."

Istorbo ba? =)

2008-11-03T14:50:00.001+08:00

Lately, I have been finding myself talking to almost everyone in my old team/old company via YM and Gtalk.

I guess I have been missing home more than I am realizing. I am missing Turon kaso naman! Lagi na lang tulog! Hahaha. Of course there is the consideration of our major time difference so I don't talk to him via YM/Gtalk as often as I would want to.

No, I am not settling by talking to my old team mates because yes, I miss them all too.

So if you find that I am bothering you via YM or Gtalk, miss ko lang kayo! Hahaha! XOXO!

Ouch!

2008-10-30T02:34:00.008+08:00

October to early December is the Flu season here in the US. Add to that the extreme change in the weather going to Fall from the Summer. Believe me, it's freezing cold here every single day! I feel like we are in giant refrigerator. Brr!!!! Hey, I myself is really not a fan of a heater. I would choose cold over heat any day... but the cold here... now... is just much too much that we actually use the heater in the car. It gets to 0 degree Celsius in the nights here and the highest we have is around 10 deg!

Ok, what was I talking about? =)

Flu Season. Yeah! We just got free Flu Shots here in the office. My right arm is actually hurting now but it's just the price I have to pay to be free from flu for 1 whole year!

Let me barrow McQ's tag line.... Free stuff is love! =)

stupid

2008-10-25T04:20:00.002+08:00

Yeah. You woke up the bitch in me.

nagtitipid ako...

2008-10-03T02:45:00.004+08:00

My very first Starbucks drink here in the US...

And only because it's free here in the office this week! Hehehe.

Under Construction...

2008-09-26T09:27:00.000+08:00

3 months down, 2 more to go!

2008-09-23T07:03:00.017+08:00

These are some random thoughts going through my head right now. I should warn you, they don't necessarily form one cohesive thought. Just some ramblings.
• So excited to go back home.

• Earlier today, I was missing the most mundane, simple things I do back in Manila. Like riding the FX from Buendia to 11th Avenue with Turon, riding the LRT and going straight to Ever Gotesco Grand Central mall to buy some dinner, riding the awful elevator in our office building, etc., etc.Nowadays, I just try to keep my negative (meaning homesickness & loneliness) emotions to a minimum. I keep myself busy to stop my mind from wandering to those saddening thoughts. I must sound like a baby, whining and whining about missing home BUT! I haven't been away from home, from Turon for more than a day and 5 months is... much too much!

• Things to Keep me Busy
1. read Twilight
2. read New Moon
3. watched Grey's Anatomy Season 4 (finished in 2 days! Just in time for the 2-hr season premier this Thursday)
4. shop for pasalubongs =)
5. go to church
6. listen to Eclipse audio book
7. and oh yeah... work =)

• 2 weekends ago, we went to Old Town Alexandria to see the sights and the Art Show. I'll probably post some pictures some other day. I'm too lazy to do it now.

• I'm actually waiting for 8PM to watch the latest episode of Gossip Girl now. This is what I love about being here, I am super updated with the series!

• Yesterday we went to Fair Oaks Mall... mall was kinda small, smaller than Dulles Town Center anyway.

• I'm bored (obvious ba?)

What's mine is not mine!

2008-09-18T09:55:00.007+08:00

Nakakainis!

This is getting ridiculous!

superhuman

2008-09-16T09:50:00.005+08:00

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment u came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see though the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman)
Super human

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
And I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman)
Super human

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human

Super human

presenting...

2008-09-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

fickle-minded me

2008-09-08T07:15:00.009+08:00

I really am starting to hate myself. One minute I'm OK, but then the next, I am not! Ano ba talaga gagawin ko? Yesterday I was okay with staying here until December. Turon and I even talked about it already. But today, I WANT TO GO HOME!!!! Am I doing the right thing by choosing to stay? Or am I being a baby for wanting to go home? How did I get myself into this situation? How? Why? How?!?!

I really don't know what to do. Jet uwi na tayo!

Homesickness

2008-09-02T00:29:00.012+08:00

Lately I've been feeling all kinds of emotions most probably brought about by my homesickness... I miss my Turon so much. Only thing that helps me get by is my Ashburn family... Kaya lang isa-isa na rin silang umuuwi!!! Waaah!

Taken during Richie's despedida....

me! me! me!

2008-08-31T11:06:00.000+08:00

seriously...

2008-08-22T21:55:00.006+08:00

I can't afford to listen to sad love songs right now 'coz if I do, I might burst out crying...

I just miss you so much. =(

Washington DC + Baltimore Maryland Weekend

2008-08-18T09:38:00.010+08:00

Saturday:

Went to Washington DC to go to our White House tour. Yes, we went inside. =) It was a short tour as we are allowed to tour the first floor only. We saw the Library, Vermeil Room, East Room, Green Room, Blue Room (I'm guessing that above this room is the Oval Office since the room was oval-shaped), Red Room, State Dining Room, Entrance and Cross Halls. I personally love the Red Room, probably because of its color. Hehehe. Although, I saw this stunning painting of Jackie O. in the Vermeil Room... she really is gorgeous. There were guards in each room and most of them were available for questions. They basically know everything about the room they are guarding. Ask them anything and they have an answer. Questions about the painting, furniture, displays, etc.... Too bad cameras were not allowed. From what we've heard it is only allowed during the Christmas season when the whole White House is filled with Christmas decors. I wonder how it looks like...

After our quick tour, we decided to tour the rest of Washington DC as well. We walked and walked and walked to see the Washington Monument and Lincoln Memorial. Before the day ended, we were all exhausted from walking and the heat! The trip was fun, nonetheless. =)

Picture! Picture!

Sunday:

Good Morning Baltimore!!!!

We were singing that line (from the movie Hairspray) repeatedly since we were in Baltimore Maryland! The streets there were picturesque and tourists were everywhere. There were 'parked' ships and even a submarine along the Chesapeake bay. Yet another tiring but definitely fun day. We walked around the bay area and took a lot of pictures!

Pictures to be uploaded soon!

Two Days --- Two State/Municipality

Exciting Saturday!!!

2008-08-15T10:05:00.008+08:00

Yep! We are going here... INSIDE!!!!

...and we skipped all these:

White House Tours

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My Personality Type

2008-08-15T04:44:00.010+08:00

Groundbreaking Thinker (GT)

(Just visiting? Take the free personality test and determine your iPersonic type!)

Groundbreaking Thinker (GT)

Groundbreaking Thinkers are charming, enthusiastic persons. They really bubble over with energy and like to take centre stage. They love variety both professionally and privately. Groundbreaking Thinkers tackle changes consistently with their optimism and firm belief in their own abilities; they are always on the look-out for improvement possibilities. Their excellent communication skills are of great advantage to them here. They approach the world with curiosity and openness and master new situations with a great deal of talent for improvising and with resourcefulness. Their spare time is taken up with a large number of hobbies; most Groundbreaking Thinkers like to travel in order to gather as many different impressions as possible. This personality type is unbeatable at discovering new possibilities.

In their work, Groundbreaking Thinkers highly rate challenges and diversified tasks. They cannot stand routine and too detailed work. They love to astound others with bold ideas for an original, new project and then leave it up to the others to implement them. Hierarchies, rules and regulations arouse their opposition and they love outsmarting the system. It is vital to them that they enjoy their work; if this is the case, they quickly become pure workaholics. Their creativity best takes effect when they work independently; but they are very good at motivating others and infecting them with their optimistic nature. Conceptual or advisory activities appeal especially to Groundbreaking Thinkers. It can happen that some people feel somewhat duped by their flexible, spontaneous nature.

Their sociability and enterprise ensure that Groundbreaking Thinkers always have a large circle of friends and acquaintances in which activity plays an important role. As they are mostly in a good mood, they are popular and very welcome guests. Grumbling and peevishness are unknown to them. However, they do tend to be a little erratic and unstable when it comes to obligations and this makes them appear to be unreliable to some. Groundbreaking Thinkers are very critical and demanding when it comes to picking a partner because they look for the ideal relationship and have a very concrete picture of this ideal relationship. Mutual aims in life are very important to them. They do not like compromising and would rather remain alone. For the partner, it is often a challenge to have a long-term relationship with a Groundbreaking Thinker. Groundbreaking Thinkers need a lot of space and diversity or otherwise they become bored and feel cramped. Types who are rather more traditionalistic often have problems with the willingness of Groundbreaking Thinkers to take risks and their often crazy, spontaneous actions. However, if one can summon up sufficient flexibility and tolerance for them, one will never be bored in their presence and will always have a loyal and faithful partner.

Adjectives which describe your type
extroverted, theoretical, logical, spontaneous, rational, innovative, intellectual, open, independent, curious, enterprising, analytical, clever, enthusiastic, venturesome, inventive, energetic, sociable, optimistic, non-conformist, creative, freedom-loving, charming, able to get enthusiastic, self-confident, communicative, capricious, inconsistent, outgoing

These subjects could interest you
documentaries, books, talks, museums, computer, Internet, strategy games, politics, drawing/painting

***Got it from Cecille's post... Tagging everyone who reads this! =)

Best Girl and Boy!!! =)

2008-08-13T05:17:00.007+08:00

I sooooo love Katie and Joshua from So You Can Think You Can Dance Season 4 (US)!!!

are you ready boots?

2008-08-12T08:09:00.008+08:00

These boots are made for walkin'

And that’s just what they’ll do

One of these days these boots are gonna walk all over you...

Got it at Cutesygirl

happy! happy! joy! joy!

2008-08-01T21:41:00.004+08:00

Inexplicable happiness...

No Tax Weekend in Virginia!

Circuit City here I come...

a week away from home

2008-07-18T21:45:00.005+08:00

Ok, so I’ve been here for a week now and so far, so good. Last night I did my laundry the very first time (the American way that is…) using the washing machine and the dryer. Washing machines here are quite different from the ones we have in Manila. Here, there is a direct connection to the water and you can choose to use warm or even hot water! Ayus dba? It was my first time to use the dryer as well, I know mababaw, but really, I was amazed! Hehehe! Nakakatuwa coz by time I was finished, all I had to do was to fold my clothes and put it back in my dresser. No more kusot, piga and sampay! And all my clothes smelled fresh and clean kahit hindi naarawan! (parang pang commercial na ah!)

We pretty much have a system going in our house. There are 6 of us in our apartment, you would think it’s crowded, but surprisingly, it’s not. Each of us is assigned to cook lunch/dinner everyday of the week. To save up, what we do is cook a big meal for dinner then save some and eat the remaining dish for lunch the following day. Aside from saving up on cash, we usually save up on time as well since cooking time is reduced by half! :)

Anyway, enough about the stuff in our house. So far, we have been to:

Dulles Town Center
Walmart
Grand Mart
Marshall’s
Macy’s
JCPenny
Best Buy
Toys R’ Us

It’s pretty much obvious that I am having the time of my life here, but I have to say, I still am missing some people there in Manila. Mich is going to DC for the weekend to meet up with some relatives and Jet will explore Virginia with his relatives as well. As for me, stuck in our house with no plans at all. Hopefully, I won’t get homesick and bored. I hope Alwyn and Noel would want to go to malls and outlets stores para sasama ako!

Next weekend, I’ll be going to New York!!! Woot! =)

kwento kwento

2008-07-13T12:17:00.010+08:00

Yep, I'm finally here...

In just 2 days, I feel like I have undergone so much... mahirap magkwento so bullet points na lang... Hehehe!

* I REALLY hate good byes.
* Traveling is like getting an injection... I hated the first part (waiting)... but once it's over (goodbyes), everything becomes okay.
* I'm not a big fan of long flights.
* Roads here in the US are huge compared to the ones in Manila, and bad traffic is practically non-existent.
* My very first purchase here in the US... a GO PHONE! :) Now I can text Turon for just $0.10!

Confused...

2008-07-07T12:42:00.009+08:00

... that's what I am!!!

I love this trip... really... I do!
I love the opportunities it presents, both professionally and personally.
I love the experience I will be getting, the lessons I will be learning... the money I will be saving! Hahaha!

HOWEVER, I hate the fact that I will be leaving him for 3 months...

I know! I know! They say that 3 months is not that long... BUT it's my life and I say IT IS long! Waaah!!!

how was your weekend?

2008-06-09T20:49:00.008+08:00

Mine was great…

P.S. I said yes

here we go...

2008-06-04T11:59:00.005+08:00

To those who do not know, I am currently embarking on a semi new path and I’m happy to say that things are definitely looking up! So far, so good! =)

Last Saturday, we went to Lamesa Ecopark to play Paintball! It was fun, but I got hit twice… AND IT HURTS!!! I now have two bruises, one each side of my hip.

Watched Sex and the City afterwards, and I must say… I love, love, love, love, love it… made me miss the series though…

Finally got a copy of the last 7+ episodes of Gossip Girl!!! Will watch it on the weekend… Thanks Joy! (though I hope she’s not reading this… hehehe)

Happy 2 months to my nephew! =)

closing time...

2008-05-23T18:30:00.010+08:00

every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end...

lost something...

2008-05-22T20:25:00.006+08:00

I really think that there is something that is unsaid here…

It’s a reality that I have learned to accept…

Makes me sad, especially when I think about the memories…

But then again, differences can’t really be denied…

And changes are inevitable...

For all it’s worth, I was being true to myself all the way…

Never did I put on a mask nor pretend to be someone else…

Wala lang… sayang lang…

It's time everyone flies...

2008-05-21T21:16:00.005+08:00

Cebu Pacific’s ZERO Fare…

With all of the changes happening in my life lately, I almost forgot to post about Cebu Pac’s latest promo, Zero (0) fare! I’m not really much of a traveler (yet! ), so I’m still not quite sure if these kinds of promos really give you big savings or they just make you believe that you do get big discounts… either way, I just booked me and my family tickets to go to Hong Kong!!!

Disneyland and Ocean Adventure here I come!!! Woot! Woot!

My Passport’s very first stamp…
This would be our very first international trip as a family, my Mom, Dad, Ate, Joseph (my sis’ husband) and… Turon! Yes, my family includes Turon.. hehehe! Actually this would be my first international trip. Among all of us, my Mom really is THE traveler. She has been all over the Philippines, Asia plus the US. This would not be her first time to go to HK but as for the rest of us... first timers!!! :)

Money talk…
Yeah I know this will make a significant impact on my savings (SAVINGS? ASAN!?!?!) but the decision was pretty much easy to make. The trip is not until October but already I am counting the days… errr… months pala. Ang tagal pa eh…

P.S. I’m excited!!!

P.S. I’m really, really, really excited!!!

start of my goodbyes

2008-05-17T23:57:00.007+08:00

Only a week, then I will be officially resigned… I will be leaving the company that has helped me enter the wonderful world of IT. Almost three years ago when I first entered HP and looking back I feel so grateful for all the experiences and memories that I have gained. My tenure in the company (naks tenure! eh less than 3 years lang naman!) has by no means been boring, that’s why I have never felt so torn when I was about to accept the other job from another company. I won’t stay for the work but I would definitely stay for the team.

The friendships that I have built in my team have truly been wonderful and it would really, really be very difficult to surpass. But then again, I still have no idea of what lays ahead. For those of you who don’t know, I belong in a team where work is crap but relationships are the BEST! We work hard and play even harder ika nga!

Things that I would miss:

Noise in our area!
The symphony of laughter coming from Glads, Regal, and of course, Derick
Derick’s “opportunity for you” talks
Noise in the pantry
Ivo’s alta de sociedad ways
Noise in Enterprise’ Food Park!
Jokes about Ivo’s age. LOL!
Noise in the elevator
Derick’s boys
Noise during team meetings
Office love teams
Noise in Chili Peppers
RTCIS virus
Shift A mischiefs
Noise ulit
Shift B camaraderie
Noise coming from the whole RTCIS team
My team… RTCIS

“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.”

-Dr. Seuss

I'm back...

2008-04-21T23:24:00.004+08:00

Just a little sad right now…

hmmm...

2008-04-21T22:26:00.004+08:00

Nagiisip ata si Gab… :)

Omari Gabriel Generoso

2008-04-04T23:10:00.006+08:00

Welcome to the world baby boy!

Tita Freya loves you!

(more pix here)

best valentines ever!

2008-02-14T22:34:00.007+08:00

Turon and I had our very first Valentine’s Day date ever in the 7 years of our relationship! Yey! He usually gives me flowers, this year was no exception but we don’t really celebrate the occasion by going out on a date. However, this year, we had a Valentine’s Day lunch date at Italiannis! Yum!

Continuing with my valentines day, my shift mates and I decided to go on a group date since we were all stuck at work and can’t have dinner dates with our respective significant others. Roy, Volt, Derick, Gabz, Ivo Gladz, Jam and I braved walking through Ayala and went to Glorietta to eat at Tender Bob’s (Jam and Derick were craving the pork spareribs). Unfortunately, when we got there, the Tender Bob’s stall was already replaced with another resto… that’s how lucky we were. We then decided to eat at “Binito’s” (Aveneto), waited there for almost an hour to be seated but it looked as if we were in for another 30 minutes of waiting so we finally decided to eat at the food court! So much for our fancy Valentine’s dinner!

Seats were crappy, food was so-so, but nevertheless we still had a blast which proves that we really know how to have fun no matter what situation/place we are in! J After which our “Daddy Volt” was supposed to buy us cake (well, actually buy Gladz a cake) but again unfortunately, most cakes were already sold out! Lahat ba ng gusto natin ay hindi talaga matutupad??? The cake was changed to a gallon of ice cream, again changed to a scoop of ice cream for each and finally to a Jollybee sundae for each! Thanks Volt! Hahaha! Our misfortunes didn’t end there, Landmark was already closing up by the time we got there, we actually ran for the door since the metal gate was already going down! It stopped when it was time for Derick to pass… hmm… maybe Manong Guard got a sense of the royalty that was to pass (our queen bee according to Ivo… Luv yah Dek!) Moving on, passing through Enterprise and the underpass, all the escalators were already turned off!!! Jam was wrecking havoc on the Enterprise escalator! (May construction!!!) By the time we got back to the office, it was already 9pm and we were all tired and sweaty.

Valentine’s day is supposed to be celebrated with the people that you love and I’m very happy that I was able to do so! Luv yah Turon! Luv yah guys! Mwah! Mwah! Tsup! Tsup!

7 years

2008-02-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

Yep it’s our anniversary!!!

7 years with my mahal/baby!

Last year I was able to make a collage…

But alas, this year I have too much work to do so… (sigh)

Nonetheless, Happy Anniversary baby!

Thanks for coming into my life 7 years ago! :)

technical rant

2008-02-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

It’s really frustrating when you are doing your best yet you keep making mistakes!!!

When you’re trying to prove that you can do it independently, life will find a way to prove the exact opposite.

Sorry life, I’m not done trying to prove it just yet!

usermod sucks!!!

maybe...

2008-01-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

Few days back, someone asked Turon the perennial “abroad” question:

Officemate: May balak ka ba mag abroad someday?
Turon: Wala naman
Officemate: You must be earning well. The reason why some people don’t have plans to migrate is oftentimes because of the good compensation they get here in Manila
Turon: D naman sa ganun…

Yep, still no plans…

Officemate: Nakarating ka na ba sa ibang bansa?
Turon: Nope, not yet
Officemate: Ah! That must be the reason. Pag nakarating ka na sa ibang bansa, pag balik mo sa Pilipinas you would wish to leave again
Turon: Maybe…

Now that has got me into thinking.

Turon and I, when asked if we want to migrate in the future, without hesitation we say no. But then, she made a valid point… Maybe we just don’t know what else is out there. Maybe more opportunities are indeed present outside of our beloved polluted, crime infested, corrupt country.

Maybe...

signed! sealed! delivered!

2008-01-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

Yup, it’s finally official! After almost a month of wondering and hoping… :)

Another great big step (exaggerated ba?) for Freya and Turon... well... mostly for him! Side effect lang sakin. Excellent side effects though!

Great things really do come to those who do not wait! Hehehehe.

realization and facts

2008-01-04T17:16:00.002+08:00

First few days of the year and I am not feeling well. This morning I had my 2nd asthma attack after 1 year of not having one. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. This country is getting way too polluted for me… hay naku… but still, thoughts of leaving the Philippines still hasn’t entered my mind. Hehehe.

Anyhow, I just opened my Friendster account and while I was getting my daily dose of “stalking” I realized that many of my high school and college friends are getting married if they are not already married. Yep, our batch has officially entered the “marrying zone”, like the “debut-zone” during our first-second year of college only this zone is life changing. Add to that, some even have pictures of their kids as their primary photo in Friendster. Gawd! I’m kinda feeling old right now… honestly, my mindset is still on “new-college graduate” but then, I realize this. Time really does fly!

Moving on, fact is, I am and will continue to be swamped with work and responsibilities at my job this year. Yep, I know that and that is the cold truth. Yet somehow, I seem to still not be busy! Yes, this is me again, PROCRASTINATING! I know I should start working on some things already, get a good headstart, but I just can’t. I’m still on the holiday-vacation mode even though I had been working (on-shift) since January 1! I need to get out of this funk and really start working!!! GISING FREYA! MAGTRABAHO KA!!!!

Hmm… maybe I’ll start on Monday… Hehehehe.

happy new year!

2008-01-01T18:41:00.009+08:00

I haven’t been blogging for quite a while now… been busy with other stuff I guess. Oh well, no better time to start again than on the first day of the year.Let me start with asking you guys how your holidays has been?

Merry Chrsitmas and Happy New Year!

Yes indeed, it is now the year 2008, how fast time flies right?Anyway, I think this was the best Christmas ever, gifts-wise… below are my most favorite things that I got:

First is a new watch from Turon. Love you babe!
Second is a nw phone!!! At last! This one is a combo gift from Turon, my dad, my mom, my aunt and myself. Ehehehe. Tulong tulong dba? Naawa na talaga sila sa phone ko.

Last but definitely not the least is a Guitar Hero (controller) from Turon again!!

Yey! I absolutely love this Christmas! Thanks to everyone who gave me gifts!
Still accepting gifts this whole month of January.

christmas gifts :)

2007-12-03T19:11:00.003+08:00

Okay, so we have crossed-off all the names in turon’s Christmas list and as for me, I’d say I’m halfway there. Yeah we’re happy with that especially since it’s only the third day of December BUT now I’m faced with a huge amount of gifts to wrap! Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy wrapping gifts, it allows my creative side to flow (naks!), but to wrap 60+ gifts??? Man that’s much too much!!! Hay, I just need to get my groove on… hehehe. I need to get the ball rolling, after that, I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to finish all those. Wish me luck!!!

turon and spa

2007-11-26T19:30:00.003+08:00

Okay, so what is it with SPAs and why do I love going to them? Thinking back, my first ‘SPA experience’ was way back in Grad School in UPLB no less with Honey (yes, that’s her name and that’s not a pseudo name for Turon). I forgot the name of the place already but even if it was in the suburbs, it was really good and the amenities were complete (steam, sauna, rooms with relaxing scents and Enya music). From then on, I decided that SPAs are going to be one of my favorite places in whole world. Hehehe :)

Since then, I was able to go and ‘try’ different SPA places with my friends… always my friends, never with Turon. Don’t really know why, but no matter how persistent I am in persuading him to go there he does not budge… or so I thought… finally, I was able to convince him to go to one yesterday!!!

Too bad I wasn’t able to take pictures… tsk, tsk, tsk…

We were just talking about SPAs the other night with Derick, Volt, Ivo, Gabz, Jeff, Jam and Mark and how he was a virigin to those establishments. Why he finally succumbed to my request… don’t really know… but it does not matter! Gone are the days of my begging and pleading for us to go there! Hehehe! Now, both of us can enjoy this really great and relaxing activity!

Hooray to SPAs!!!

What's on your desktop?

2007-11-23T22:04:00.005+08:00

Tagged by Cel a few days ago, but got so busy with work (busy daw oh!) that I wasn’t able to do it immediately….

So here goes, this is a screenshot of my desktop:

Obviously, I have an Andy Warhol wallpaper… very much like Cel’s... hehehe. I believe we studied and created this 'effect' for our wallpaper at the same time. Shift A girls!!! :)

A few icons on the left… which shows that I do work! Although some folders there are personal such as the ‘Bahay Files’ folder which contains some tracking files on our investment. The colorful icons on the right side are the newest additions to my desktop, a very handy tool for tracking the different time zones all over the world... very useful indeed especially for my OS Patching SPOC role. Moving on to the top, there is an object dock which came from Ced, another practical addition to my desktop… basically those are just shortcuts to the most frequently used applications and folders in my computer. There is an out of place Post-it note though in my desktop… one that was written without my knwoledge by Mcq… (I’m only guessing here but my guess is like 80% sure… hehehe) I will be deleting that once I have posted this blog. :)

The open applications on the taskbar are once again work related… HP OpenView Service Desk, Microsoft Outlook (for my work e-mail) and Mozilla Firefox (to write this very blog)…

There… have I proven to you guys now that I am a hard-working person???

Tagging: Cecil, Tago, Turon and Tin

Rules:

1. Upon receiving this tag, immediately perform a screen capture of your desktop. It is best that no icons be deleted before the screen capture so as to add to the element of fun.

2. Post the picture in your blog. You can also give a short explanation on the look of your desktop just below it if you want. You can explain why you preferred such look or why is it full of Icons, things like that

3. Tag five of your friends and ask them to give you a Free View of their desktop

Redbox the RTCIS way...

2007-11-13T10:04:00.004+08:00

Last Sunday, we went to TriNoMa with my RTCIS Teammates and we celebrated there Kuya Roy’s birthday and Papa Jeff’s despedida…

Had a lot of fun, but towards the end, Papa Jeff surprised us with a shocking news… leaving for another country... huhuhu!

We’ll miss you Papa Jeff!

More pictures here.

Yesterday, I was mistaken for a college student!

A 19-year old gal? Whoa!!!

I love my new hair! Wahahahah!

Sleep Thinking

2007-10-28T03:04:00.003+08:00

It's 3AM and I’m still awake!

This is not good. Everyone who knows me knows that I am not much of a night person… I stay up late for very special occasions and very important cramming sessions only. Late nights, or should I say dawn brings back sad thoughts and memories to mind. I don’t really know why, but I have somehow associated those during this time of the day. Oftentimes, when I’m alone (or if I don’t know the people I’m riding the car with) in my LNS, sad thoughts keep resurfacing, forcing/bringing me back to ‘those’ days. I try my best to forget about them but sadly they are forever imprinted in my mind.

To divert my thoughts, I just go about my day in my head. Think of the highlights and lowlights of the day that has just gone by. Lately, it seems to be filled with, again, not-so-good thoughts which I have to admit really saddens and affects me. I try not to get affected but in this case, it's just not in my personality. I keep trying to figure out what is happening but I can’t seem to come up with anything. Turon has other thoughts but I refuse to believe him.

Thinking back to the FY07 that was, I am realizing that I really had been busy, a lot has been thrown into my plate (which is a positive thing). For whatever it is that I will be getting, I know in my heart that I deserve it and I won’t let anything or anybody make me feel otherwise. October 2006, if you ask me I will tell you without a moment’s pause that I want to move out… but along the way a lot of things changed, thus affecting my decision. I had been really happy about that… but now… I don’t know… thoughts of resignation have even visited once or twice. It’s just that I feel like I’m trapped and I can’t move…

This thing that I am worrying about is not really work related… or maybe it is… oh, I don’t know.

Stop thinking! I need to go to sleep! Well, I need to go home first… then sleep… but I can’t go home yet… so I can’t sleep yet…

Hay naku! In Mcq’s words… My mind is so sabog!

best of the best

2007-10-27T21:17:00.004+08:00

Walang kokontra!

Here it is… finally, Cel was able to convert it from 1Gb to 30-something MB.

About it:

Used 3 applications:

- Adobe Photoshop CS
- SWiSHmax
- Sony Vegas Movie Studio 4.0

Made it for the AMG-DME offsite, as the RTCIS Team Video. Love! Love! Loves it! :)

chef frey

2007-10-15T18:06:00.004+08:00

In the effort of trying to save up, turon and I have been having home cooked dinners at our house every weekend instead of dining out… Look at what I made last night…

Cel cooked asparagus for our lunch a while back which I loved, so I decided to give it a try and cook an asparagus dish myself. For him on the other hand, I made Pork Tenderloin Cajun Steak… :)

Home cooked meals are love!

friends are love...

2007-10-13T23:00:00.004+08:00

Been busy… going out with friends! Loves it!!!

Pictures! Pictures!

Very Busy Saturday

Fort Nights [Oh My Gawd!]

just for you

2007-10-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

Mcq! Sama tayo ha?

Hehehehe :)

nakikuso lang... :)

2007-10-03T16:13:00.001+08:00

Click here to take the "Which Superhero are you?" quiz...

in love

2007-10-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

Don’t really know what has gotten into me, but… I’m in looooove!

Really, I feel like my heart is overflowing with love for him.

help me explain

2007-09-28T18:16:00.002+08:00

EMO alert...

For days now, I have been thinking of something to blog about. Something that’s deep and fitting as to what I’m feeling these days... something to explain how changes have been taking effect in my life lately. How grown up Turon and I have been feeling with each decision that we have been making. I want to put into words how some events can spiral out of control and completely change everything you’ve ever known and believed in. Make you alter your views in your life, your hopes for the future and the way you live in the present time.

I want to explain how I am affected with all that has been happening to the people that are close to me. How some things, be it small, have a negative impact on how I act and speak around them. I want to put across my intent in asking for forgiveness if in any way I have contributed to this change or if I have hurt them as they had hurt me… and at the same time I wish to let them know that I am still here. I still care for them and love them and I hope they still do for me.

I want to express how proud I am of me and my Turon with the choices that we have made and are still making. How each of our decisions proves more and more to ourselves that we have indeed come a long way… from a couple of college students to 2 grown up individuals who have made a life for themselves separately and together at the same time. How we have faced all the challenges that we re given to us in the 6 years that we have been together. Yes, some were handled not exactly the right way, but in the end we still came through.

I wish to convey the happiness that I feel for all the positive changes that my friends are experiencing now. How proud and truly pleased I am for them for making it and proving how one can achieve whatever they put their minds and hearts into… and how thrilled I am in welcoming them into our world.

Lastly, I would like to let someone know that I am and will always be behind you. To explain how I acknowledge that you have always been there for me my whole life. It is now that I realize how important and significant your presence have been. How I know that you are trying to be brave… how I wish I can be brave for you as well. But the thing is, I am not. I have to admit I am scared and a little bit unsure. It is as if I feel that a part of me has gone and it will never be returned.

Please help me explain.

what's up?

2007-09-21T16:09:00.005+08:00

Yes, this has been my life for the past week now.

I see you at work. I see you at home. I see you in my sleep!

Tedious (Yes!)
Tiresome (Yes!)
Wearying (Yes!)
Time Consuming (Yes!)

… and I’m loving it!!! :)

reality strikes

2007-09-17T10:08:00.004+08:00

Panic attack!

Deep breaths…

4 days of guilt

2007-09-16T18:48:00.002+08:00

Good things certainly are happening in my life right now. Moving forward! The Big Leap! Change! Change! Change! Truly when it rains, it pours. :)

Moving on, my girlfriend Gabz just bought an old-new phone… it’s a Nokia 5500, shock-proof and water-proof. He was so happy about his purchase that he can’t help but share all the new and cool features of the said phone. It really was cool, so cool that we (I as the leader) decided to put his phone to the test. While at work, I saw a half-full glass of water just lying around our area. That gave me an idea to submerge his phone there… hehehe. When we did the first time, all was cool, the phone was working still and pretty much nothing happened. But then, Cel was not able to see it, so we did the whole thing all over again… BIG MISTAKE! Uh-oh! The phone went dead. *moment of silence here*

In my defense, I didn’t have to convince him much, right Gabz? Eerrrr Gabz? There was a video in YouTube right?

Gabz rushed to get the phone and went to the pantry to dry it off… After several times of trying, Gabz and I were able to turn it on again! Whooopeee! But sadly Gabz told me after a couple of hours that the LCD was kinda blinking. So he had to turn it off for a few days before deciding to turn it on again… just to avoid the electronic parts from ‘grounding’.

Panic! Guilt! Oh the guilt!!!

I thought I might hear one of Gabz’s famous scary lines… “d na ko natutuwa ah!”

Imagine my relief when Gabz texted me earlier today that the phone is A-okay now! Whew! And to quote him “Mas mahalaga friendship sakin kesa sa material na bagay”.

Luvyah girlfriend! Mwah! Mwah! Tsup! Tsup!

change

2007-09-15T02:36:00.002+08:00

Changes, when it comes to our lives, are inevitable. As we grow older and hopefully become wiser, we realize more and more that change is the only thing constant. Ever since I graduated from college, my mindset has never changed, I still felt the same, acted the same and pretty much lived the same way. I don’t really recall the exact moment that I felt that I have changed, or matured as I would like to think I did but now, I have to say I’m really feeling it.

One of the major factors that brought a big change in my life is my work. From the happy-go-lucky worker that I was, I have changed into a full blown member of the working society. Little by little I have come to value the work that I do and prioritize those responsibilities that I carry. I have also come to learn that life really is not fair; you just have to work with the cards that you are dealt with. It all comes down to a person’s ability to go with the flow.

Maturity… Openness… Humility… these are all I ask. What is up?

I love you and you know that.

My mistakes I am trying to correct, differences I’ve learned to respect, regrets I am trying to forget.

people are people

2007-09-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

Whenever I am assigned on the Asia shift, my usual mode of transportation is the trusty FX. There is this terminal near our house which I have to say is the most convenient thing ever thought of. Php50 only from Monumento to Makati in just one sitting… a very long sitting that is. Hehehe :) Another thing, there is the fact that you get to ‘know’ your service-mates… almost everyone’s face becomes familiar to you. That’s an added security feature! Having said that I would like to talk about the kinds of people that you meet in an FX…

The first type of people are those that seem to think that they are in a private car. Let me explain further, when in a public transportation such as an FX, we usually have to pay to the driver (they have no cundoctors). When seated at the back, you have to rely on the people in the middle to pass on to the driver your money. But then, there are people that are focused in ignoring voice and hand. Even if you wave your money at their faces, still nothing. Why do that people???? Would you want others to do the same thing to you??? You cannot always be seated within an arms range of the driver right? Another kind that falls under this type are those that doesn’t seem to care if only the half side of your butt is seated. What they do is they carefully place their bags and stuff around them, hoping to create an illusion that the seat is full. LISTEN UP! WE CANNOT FOOL THE DRIVERS! They know how to count and I’m quite sure that they know the capacity of their vehicles. Just an advice, buy your own car!

The next type are those that seem to be wrapped in their own worlds. Nowadays, IPODs, MP3 players, Radio Phones are very common. Most often, you will find one or two persons in an FX wearing earphones. It amazes me how some people seem to think that with wearing those earphones, comes an invisibility and inaudibility cloaks. You will just be surprised that the person next to you is laughing out loud or even singing out loud. Hehehe. No harm with this type, they are actually quite amusing.

Another type are those that consider an FX seat their second bed. The minute they have finished paying, they fall asleep. Even with all the bumpy roads, reckless drivers, noisy cars with sirens and weird horn sounds we have here in Manila, amazingly, they can just sleep through the whole ride. The only negative points here are those that sleep on your shoulder and of course those that drool… eeew…

And the last type that I can think of are those that are the very friendly ones. They can strike up a conversation with anyone and make it seem as if you are his/her long lost friend. Again, no harm with those, just a little weird especially for those that are not naturally friendly.

There, those are the different kinds of people that I face everyday when I’m riding an FX. Truly an interesting journey even if it is a short one. :)

foot-in-my-mouth

2007-08-21T18:47:00.003+08:00

Just moments ago, I made my biggest faux pas ever. There I was with Dee and Cel, having a pleasant conversation… and I just said it! I knew there was something wrong as the words were coming out of my mouth… wahahahahaha! Like somehow my spirit lifted out of my body and I was looking down at myself while I was speaking! I think my face got redder (if there is such a term) than Cels' sisters’ no-load, borrowed Motorola pink phone!!!

I just hope Dee and Cel did not get offended! I swear! No offense meant… uh… guilty much???

Sorry na!!! Luvyah guys!

Loving the Rain

2007-08-19T19:52:00.002+08:00

“Ooh, I hear laughter in the rain,
walking hand in hand with the one I love.
Ooh, how I love the rainy days
and the happy way I feel inside”

It’s been raining the whole week last week… and I loved it! (I know, I know, some are suffering because of this… but I can’t help it, I love it when it rains) Unfortunately though, I wasn’t able to enjoy it because I was stuck in a training the whole week. What made it worse, I had to take a certification exam which I am not too confident about now that I think about it. I felt so relieved after the exam and I was more than ready to take on the weekend. Especially since weekend=dates with turon!

Our date started off quite late… guess who was late? Weeeeell, we both were, he was late but I was even more late… hehehe! There is something about the rain that makes people just want to curl up in bed and listen to Harry Potter… uh… Or was that just me? :)

one year!

2007-08-09T17:13:00.003+08:00

Oh my! It’s August already! Happy anniversary to my blog! Wheee!

Feminist Freya

2007-08-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

It’s turon’s birthday today… YEY!

Anyway, we were walking in a mall and there was a couple a few steps ahead of us. It seemed like they were having a fight while walking… and to confirm my suspicion I saw the girl kinda slap the guy… (haha! Sorry I like to be well informed of what’s happening in my surroundings). Moving on, it came as a shock but if you think about it, it is acceptable... But to my horror, the guy hit the girl in the face! Then the girl slapped him again, then the guy hit him again!!! This happened a couple of times more, until the girl gave in and let the guy drape his arm around her. We passed by a comfort room and the girl made a beeline for it and when she turned I saw that she was already crying… =(

I was really bothered by the scene that we had just witnessed. I mean, we see it in the movies a lot, but when you see it in real life… I cannot believe what I was seeing, I am absolutely, 100% sure that when they do get married (if they are not yet in fact married) she will be a battered wife. I cannot think of a valid enough reason for him to hit her in the face… several times… in public! What an a@#hole! In my mind, I was thinking of ways to tell him off and humiliate him for what he was doing. After maybe an hour of more walking, turon noticed that I was still bothered… yeah for some reason, what we saw awoken the feminist/activist side of me. I felt pity for that girl… I mean I’m sure that since they are a couple, that she loves that guy. We come to a point that we get so involved that we just can’t reason with our hearts. How can you stop loving a guy because he hit you?

It is quite easy to say that as modern day women, we won’t let anybody especially men to step all over us, but when you put love as a factor, all reason seem to fly out of the window. Yes, we all come to a point when we get fed up with all that but even so, we accept pain first before we leave. *sigh*

I was thinking to myself that I won’t let that happen to me. EVER! But I can never be so sure. The easiest thing that we can do is to hope that we choose the right boyfriend or husband or partner and even hope more that they don’t have a mind as small as a fly to do such a thing.

*** these are MY thoughts and opinions…

which one are you?

2007-07-20T10:49:00.004+08:00

I’ve been meaning to write a post for quite sometime now, but I’m actually really busy at work. I’m assigned to handle a new project and I must say quite amazed at myself that I was able to really focus on it. (hehehe) There are still a lot of things to do for that project, but me being able to do something from scratch in such a short period of time is an accomplishment enough in itself, which makes all the busy-ness worthwhile. Additionally, Cel and Jam and I have been quite busy planning our team’s tagaytay trip… yeah its fun to do, but it really takes up quite a huge amount of effort and time. Another thing that I must mention here… I just made a huge decision regarding my career path just a few days ago. Everyone in our team knows that I am one of the many people that's really very anxious to move to another team/role… but with the changes that has happened and are still happening to our team, I’ve been getting second thoughts. Hence, the decision to stay. A very busy and eventful week I must say.

Moving on, the thing that I've been wanting to blog about is something that I/our team has experienced a few weeks back. Problems and challenges are a big part of our lives, be it a problem with relationships, work, personal and many, many more. It is not how many times a person faces a problem that is important but it is how he/she handles or faces it.

Which makes me wonder, does the way we handle a problem somewhat defines our character?

Some people when faced with a problem, become even stronger and tougher. They stick to what is is right and fight fairly and honestly. Some people on the other hand, fight fire with fire... an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. Lastly, some other people, they just give up. Make some kind of lame-ass excuse then just vanish from the face of the earth.

I would like to think that I belong to the first group… how about you?

hermione

2007-07-13T14:40:00.003+08:00

I’m amazed at just how much she has grown.

extended weekend!

2007-07-03T11:14:00.005+08:00

Who said Mondays are toxic? Apparently that is not applicable to us! Hehehe! We even found turon’s long lost son! What do you know??? Mwahness to my girls! I had fun! Next time we will beat them!

more than meets the eye

2007-07-02T09:27:00.013+08:00

I never thought that I would be interested in a movie about robots! But there we were, last Saturday, we watched Transformers… and I loved, loved, loved, loved, loved it! hehehehe! After the movie I kept asking turon about the names of the robots… I guess I bugged him so much that he told me to look it up in wikipedia already! Nyahahaha! So, this is the result of my research:

The first five are the AUTOBOTS

Optimus Prime – Peterbilt 18-wheeler Truck

Bumblebee – Chevrolet Camaro

Jazz – Pontiac Solstice

Ironhide – GMC Toppick 6500 pick-up truck

Rachet – Search and Rescue Hummer H2

Then there are the DECEPTICONS

Megatron – Cybertronian jet

Starscream – Lockheed Martin F-22 Raptor

Blackout – Sikorsky MH53 Pave Low II

Frenzy – Boombox

Barricade – Saleen 5281 Ford Mustang police car

Oh well, that’s enough boy stuff for me. We watched the movie at Trinoma, on the reclining seats (aka Lazy Boy) 250 per person. It’s kinda hidden, so when you buy your tickets you have to ask for the reclining seats first from the ticket person… (err… whatever they are called). It was okay, only thing though is that, the seats smelled like it just came out of the cabinet. Ehehe. I guess that’s because they are still new. So anyway, watch the movie! I enjoyed it so much that i even forgot about all the things that I'm supposed to do at work! Hehehehe!

whining! whining!

2007-06-14T17:36:00.002+08:00

I feel like an old person right now… LITERALLY! My whole body is aching, if I have to rate it, I’d say it’s an 8 out of 10! I have to hold on to something when I have to sit down and the thing that old people do when they try to pick up something from the floor (they hold on to their knee)? I do it! So when something falls off the ground, lucky if I get to pick it up. hehehe. Also, I feel like I have to walk with a cane when going up and down the stairs, lucky for me it rained today (used it as my cane)… heehee… I know, I know I’m whining! Hay naku! Sabi nga ni turon, I MUST LOVE PAIN!

P.S. I hate you Jack!

Woohoo! Yeehoo!

2007-06-13T17:36:00.002+08:00

If I could escape
And recreate a place that's my own world
And I could be your favorite girl (forever)
Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better
Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet?

just someone i know

2007-05-31T12:23:00.003+08:00

Introducing a boy that's near and dear to me...

a girl can dream, can't i?

2007-05-19T11:16:00.001+08:00

when you can't sleep at night

2007-05-15T11:14:00.003+08:00

Around 7PM last night I already felt that I would be suffering through a long night due to a headache. I was able to ignore the pain for several hours since it was still pretty much tolerable, I even fell asleep at around 11:40PM. But then at around 2AM I was awoken by the throbbing pain in my head, I felt like my head was splitting into two! After 30 minutes of just staring at the ceiling I decided to take some medicine so that I would be able to sleep, especially since I had to be up again by 6AM to get ready for work. 30 minutes passed by and still nothing is changing; I was still suffering from the mind numbing pain in my head! Thank God by 3:30AM I was able to sleep… while sitting down… hehehe. Antok na talaga ako. I tried to file for a sick leave today but unfortunately no one would be able to cover my shift! Hay naku! Until now, I feel like my head is still carrying 10lb weights on each ear!

Anyway moving on, I have finally discovered why I haven’t been able to write blog entries for months now. The past two months had been roller coaster ride for me. I had felt probably 20 different kinds of sadness, 10 different kinds of anger, loneliness, despair (each), 10 different kinds of doubt and 5 different kinds of happiness. (What the hell am I talking about??) I guess I just want to emphasize the fact that my emotions were put to the test this past few weeks and as much as I want to share all those feelings here in my blog, I decided that I won’t but rather just to share it with a few close friends which by the way really helped me A LOT! Also I wouldn’t want my blog to be like a dear diary now would I? Heeheehee.

It pretty much goes without saying that whatever I went through back then is ‘kind of’ over now. I say ‘kind of’ because honestly, I am still unsure but I am hoping.

Oh! And Happy Birthday to my dear and loving father!!! Happy Birthday Dad!!! <3

happy birthday gabz!

2007-05-15T00:00:00.003+08:00

Because I forgot to greet him yesterday…

i'm back... i hope

2007-05-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

It’s been more than a month since I last posted a ‘valid’ blog entry here… puro one liner lang daw eh… hehehe… anyway, let me try to recall what had happened since.

April 14

Joined Turon’s company outing at Clearwater Golf and Country Club in Clark Pampanga. I came as his guest, basically just watched them as they go about the normal ‘outing’ activities… relays, cheering competition, games, etc… oh and it was my first swimming this summer of 2007

April 21

HP – AMG had our 2nd Team Building Activity at Batangas Coutry Club in Batangas. Yes, there were games but unfortunately I wasn’t able to join since I was the DM from 8AM to 4:30PM… too bad. But when night time came I was free! Hehehe. I was able to join the activities for the evening, I even sang with HP’s band (I’m a member by the way… ehehehe) Jam@HP. Gabz and I braved singing in front of the whole AMG group with Kuya Roy slamming away with the drums… Tin, Jam and Ivo on the other hand whom are members of HP’s dance group – Let’s Groove, gave a very fun and funky performance. Derick meanwhile was a host! So that basically comprises our whole team… even with our very small headcount and very demanding roles most of us were able to participate at the event… one word sums it all up… BIBO!

April 28

Our team had a very impromptu yet well planned party at Ced’s place. We spent overnight there at casa Tanedo… ehehe. Billiards, poker, basketball and swimming… what more can you ask for?

** sorry no pictures… tignan nyo na lang blog ni Cel and Turon.

waiting for my 1 am ride

2007-04-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

uncertainty

2007-04-17T17:23:00.002+08:00

One step forward, two steps back…

nothing new?

2007-04-04T11:52:00.002+08:00

Blog leave? Not so much…

Just keeping things undercover…

can't stop thinking

2007-03-09T11:55:00.003+08:00

Back when I was a kid, I believed that I would grow up to be this perfect person. There are lots of things that I promised myself that I wouldn’t become, a lot of things that I thought to myself that I would be. A black and white way of looking on what’s good and bad… and I believed that I would be on the good side all the way. But then life came… experiences came, friends came, and lovers came.

As a kid we are all idealistic, filled with hope and desire to be someone which we perceive as perfect. Growing up we realize that life usually doesn’t have the same plan for us. In life we face endless struggles and fights that ultimately influence us, our personality, our being. With each struggle, we change, be it a change for the good or for the bad. All of our experiences shape us up into the person that we are now. And the way that we face these difficulties also define ourselves.

Struggles, I have faced many in my life… some I believe, I was able to handle well, and some disastrously not. I would like to think of myself as the best product/version that life can possible give… well maybe not the best (there’s always room for improvement!) but good enough. There will always be things that I wish I could change, regrets they are called. They say that the way to live a full life is to not have regrets, but truthfully, who doesn’t have any? Then there are things that when I look back into it, makes me proud of what I am and who I have become.

So why am I thinking about all of this now? I guess you can say that I am in slump! I’m in a point where I am constantly evaluating myself, my decisions, and my life. Hmm… maybe this is quarter-life crisis… or maybe… nah I won’t say it, for if I do, then it would be immortalized in this blog and then it would be real. Hay!

I said I wasn’t gonna lose myself… but then POP! Goes my heart!

love is...

2007-03-05T00:37:00.003+08:00

... an emotion so strong that you would give up everything, to just feel it once, to know that you are part of something special. To know that you can feel what love really is, to know, to feel, to love...

hopelessness

2007-03-02T10:24:00.002+08:00

I’ve been staring at this blank page for a while now and I can’t seem to come up with words to describe what is happening to me, how I’m feeling and what I’m thinking. All I have are questions, lots of questions. How can something so good be so wrong? How can a feeling which seems to be so right and true not be enough? How can life be this complicated?

Truly, pulling an end of a thread can cause for a sweater to unravel. Seems like this is what is happening to me right now. I am watching, right before my very eyes how a relationship so strong and deep unravels. How something so small can cause for everything to just fall apart. Ask me 2 days ago and I would answer to you that I am fine, not great but doing just fine. But now, today, I feel like there is a heavy weight upon me, a dark cloud hovering above my head.

I am feeling incredibly sad to say the very least. I am feeling hopeless and that’s the truth. I felt angry and resentful a while back for I know that it wouldn’t have come to this if it didn’t start in the first place. But honestly, I don’t really wish for that. If this did not start then it would mean that I wouldn’t have experienced everything that I have experienced the past 6 years. I can’t really imagine my life during those years without you. Yes, you.

I know that the problem we are facing right now is a major one; one that we have been trying to ignore the past 6 years; one that we keep trying to convince ourselves that would just get solved on its own; and one that we both are passionate about. You will change. I will change. Wishful thinking’s, easy way outs, ideal situation but in the end, no one is changing.

You came up with a way that would help us decide, just a few hours into it I seem to be falling apart. I am trying and failing miserably. But I will continue to try for it seems that it is working for you. You told me not to cry… but I am crying, crying over the unbelievable pain that I’m feeling right now; crying because I feel hopeless; crying just thinking of what I would be losing; crying because I’m just not ready to accept the fact that there really is nothing more we can do.

I am not ready for this. And I don’t think I ever will be.

unwelcome

2007-02-24T09:09:00.002+08:00

I never had a conversation with you anymore wherein you made me feel welcomed… well not since 2000-whatever. And every time I try, you never fail to make me feel bad.

*PS: I deleted the previous post kase that certain person and I are okay na.

peace offering?

2007-02-21T15:16:00.003+08:00

Cel called me up at 6 freakin’ am today to tell me that she will not be coming to work because she wanted to spend time with her mom before she goes back to Davao. I totally understood and I had no problems with that, except maybe for the fact that she woke me up. heehee! Anyway, she came to the office a while ago to give a ‘peace offering’ daw. Hello?? I asked her if we were at war (which we’re not!). Anyway, thanks Cel for the offering! :)

miracle

2007-02-20T09:33:00.002+08:00

As I was commuting to work today, I was fighting the awkwardness of my seat (in an FX) trying my best to get into slumber mode. hehe! Somewhere along Osmeńa Highway a song kept disturbing my extended sleeping time. The song ‘Miracle’ by Whitney Houston which I know has been quite popular during its time has shown itself up to a particular stations’ play list. Nothing special I know, but the lyrics of the song hit home. I have been pulled back into my ‘thinking state’ for the past week now. Scary thoughts and doubts seemed to have crept its way back into my mind and have bothered me immensely especially when I am thinking about my future. Then I heard this song, sappy I know, letting myself believe that this is a sign. But whatever! I can believe whatever I choose to believe. And this song seemed to have made me feel better. So yeah, I guess that was a sign.

Nothing should matter

Not when love grows inside you

The choice is yours

There's a miracle in store

Nothing should matter

Not when love grows inside you

A voice of love is crying out

Don't throw love away

There's a miracle in store

How could I let go of a miracle

Nothing could ever take its place

Thought I was looking

Out for myself

Now it seems the pain

Is all that I have gained

I wonder if you could be my miracle

I wonder if you could spare me pain

Seems as though nothing will comfort me

Less today I pray

That you should come listen

sad thought

2007-02-16T16:49:00.002+08:00

Ever felt this before?

Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and surprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that he's not for you.

-Iris, The Holiday

i am missing something right now...

2007-02-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

I just wish it would come already… and let me out of my misery.

I saw someone just recently and all my insecurities are rushing back in. Hay, I hate myself when I’m like this. I feel so down right now. I miss being on top. I need steps, concrete steps like for alcoholics, the 12-step thing… I need that! I need discipline! I need motivation! I need something! Hay! Nakaka- frustrate!

I HATE THIS! I HATE THIS! I HATE THIS!

happy birthday!

2007-02-08T15:17:00.000+08:00